A Mother's Lessons
Danielle Cote Serar
Everyone is carrying something. And yíall the last several days, Iíve been carrying a strong-willed, independent, 3-year old with my younger selfís personality and all I can say is my prayers have been ďLord, I
know this is my fault. I prayed for a daughter who was just like me but happy. And you gave me that. And I know my momma is up there laughing her head off at me but would you put some calm and some chill in this
child because Iím about to lose myÖ well you know.Ē
And itís been hard. Everything has been a battle. My baby is super clingy and frankly most days even daddy wonít do. My 3-year-old thinks every single thing out of my mouth is a battle of wills and a test of who is in charge. Add it to everything else thatís going on right now in my little microcosm for the past several weeks - the good and the bad - and itís freaking exhausting.
I love the saying ďThis too shall pass.Ē And yes it will. There is comfort in knowing that this current discomfort will pass. But I think when we hear that we sometimes thinkÖ and then everything will be rosy and ok. Thatís not life.
Every stage has its own unique hard. Being single - hard. Being married - hard. No kids - ok maybe THAT oneís not hard but if you want kids it is. Newborn - hard. Toddler - hard. School-aged - hard. Teenagers - certifiably hard as hell. SAHM - so dang hard. Working mom - equally freaking hard. Itís all hard.
Itís just different.
And on days like these last weeks, while I do remind myself, yes this too shall pass, I also remind myself to find the joy even in this messy, crazy and often LOUD (on both our parts) difficult time. That this will transition into a new but different hard.
Instead of focusing on the trying aspects, I force myself to find the good, the joy, the moments that make the hard oh so worth it. Because in the end, this will pass and I wonít be able to capture those moments
again. Sheís only going to be 3 once. Heís only gonna be a baby once. And when itís done, I will wish I still had it, despite the hard.
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