Open

By M. Jay Mansfield

I'm so clean I'm filthy...
So defective I'm perfect.
I hate you so much...
I'll love you for ever...
And in the darkness I must relieve the pressure...

I open myself to the terror...
I split my skin and I bleed....
I open myself to the horrors...
I smile and I am free...

I enter the darkness with a bright future...
The sky's the limit for me...
As I creep upon the star littered swamps floor...
I know that I am free...

Some how it changed...
The fear the pain the rage...
It had to be let out...
Who turned that sinister page...

Pain instructions page one...
Followed soon by fear and death...
Oh my god what have I done...
There's just no more choices left...

When did the blood lust get too strong?
Why did you open up for me?
When did this all go so wrong?
Why do I have to feast?

I open myself to the terror...
I split the skin and it bleeds...
I open myself to the horror...
I smile and I am free...
I open the door into the night...
I pry your eyes open so I can see...
I open all the darkness to look inside...
I look and there is only me...

©8-18-04 MJMansfield